I'm on a higher dose of meds than usual.
I feel like I should go down on my medication.
Like I'm a better person if i can live on less meds.
Where does this come from?
I guess it comes from years of living w/o medication.
Should I be a hero and go down on my medication?
Part of me feels like I shouldn't feel this good. Maybe I should start flogging myself.
Medication is so easy to forget. You take it once a day and forget it. Idon't like to remind myself that I'm medicated.
It's kind of a cheat. All those other people survive w/o meds.
I have some issues with meds.
But I am completely compliant.
Should I be a hero?
Maybe I'll be fine. Maybe I won't.
Should I find out?
My doctor gives me the power to slightly adjust my meds. I am in the driver's seat. Afterall, I'm the one who knows how I feel.
I think it would be easier if there was a guy who said, "Go down." or "go up." I don't necessarily like making the decisions.
What a baby I am.
I'm never happy.
I guess i'll stay where I'm at. Why shouldn't I feel great?
Who in the hell cares if i'm up on my meds?
(i do...)
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I sometimes judge being on any medication as a sign of weakness as if "I couldn't do it for myself." However, now that I'm high doses and more than I've ever taken, I can judge myself as weak or incomplete for having to rely on this "crutch". Well, this "crutch" helped me move out of a one-year savage depression and get my life back. If that's weakness I'll take it.
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